It’s Time to Share Your Medicine

Something you may or may not know about me, is that I love exploring consciousness through plant medicines.

In fact, mushrooms were the catalyst for my awakening, for the journey I've been on over the past 5 or so years. Austin and I took them together in a very intentional way after a lot of research back in 2019, and it lifted the veil, so to speak. 

Since then I have continued to use psychedelics to expand and heal my own mind, as well as to play, connect, and deepen my relationships.

Though they are not for everyone, I do believe that these sacred medicines can deeply accelerate our growth and healing.

Anyway, the reason I am writing this email is because this weekend I sat in ceremony again – an incredible mushroom + sound journey guided by a dear brother of mine who is so, so talented.

It was an intimate container between 8 friends, and exactly what I needed.. but not in the ways I thought.

Usually I feel called to a bigger dose of mushrooms when there is something I am seeking clarity about in my life. When I feel disconnected or just traversing a big change in my life. So this time I thought it was time for another lesson of sorts.

To my surprise, what mostly happened was that I experienced deeeeeep, full-body rest.. I didn't realize how tired I have been lately. Not just from doing a lot, but also from navigating challenges, holding space, and taking care of business.  

Aside from the reminder that we desperately need more rest.. not just mindless scrolling on the couch (calling myself out here, too), but deep, surrender type of rest.. what came through that I felt called to share with you was this:

It is a disservice to not share your gifts, your voice, your insight just because you think you don't know enough yet, aren't ready, have so much left to learn, etc. 

This one came through pretty strongly on Saturday as I laid there blindfolded and enveloped in healing frequencies.. (not a bad place to learn :)

For a long time I have battled the thought that I am not knowledgable enough to share what I know because I am veryaware of how much I have left to learn in this life.. and although I have continued to push through and show up anyway, there is still a part of me that holds me back from going all in. 

And I have a feeling you might resonate in your own way. 

Here's what I have learned that may serve you, too:

Life is FULL of paradoxes. In fact, I think it is our capacity to be with life's paradoxes that allows us to grow, heal, and mature. 

So, in this case, the paradox is that you are both a masterpiece AND a work in progress at the same time. We all are. 

What I mean by that is that you know everything and yet nothing.. lol, that's extreme.. but also not wrong..

We are both divine beings, an extension of God/Source/Universe, yet also imperfect humans.. 

We have SO much wisdom to share with the world no matter what our age or how much experience we have, AND ALSO, we still have SO much left to learn. Always will.  

So, knowing that it is a BOTH AND situation, what is the takeaway here? 

It is a disservice not to share what you know/feel called to share.. because the people who need to here your message, as told through your unique perspective, could benefit deeply from your wisdom.  

The goal, however, is to share humbly. With such deep humility for how much you have left to learn, yet with the deep understanding that you have medicine to share right now, exactly as you are. 

Can we hold both of those at the same time?

What helps me do so is recognizing that it's not just about me. It's not about falling prey to the critical voices in my head or the perfectionist tendencies I adopted to keep myself safe.. 

Yes, that is part of my journey (perhaps all of our journeys), but staying devoted to service is also a big, big part.  

When you focus your attention on the WHY, it's a lot easier to show up despite the fears and insecurities and trust that the desire is there for a reason. 

There is a quote I always come back to that says, “God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called”.

So can you, can I, hold the duality of this lesson to show up fully yet continue to be humble enough to stay open, curious, and willing to learn? 

I think yes. 

What is it that you have felt called to share, to do, to create? How have you held yourself back because you, “don't feel ready”?

And how can you take this lesson and apply it to your own journey? 

Let this shift your perspective so that your medicine can be shared with the world. The world needs it.

I believe in you.

I believe in us.